perfect

[spankerella]

So there was some talking this afternoon. Yes, my mother is sick, but I am not going to allow her to make me miserable because she's going through something unfortunate. Selfish maybe, but I'm really not the servant type. Never have been. I'll help her, but I will draw some lines. I've been letting her walk all over me since she got diagnosed because I felt just terrible about it. Not anymore. I mean, I still feel bad, and I wish it had not happened to her, but not bad enough that I'm going to continue as I have been. I told her that I'd do what she asked, but I was not a mind reader, so a little wiggle room would be nice. She expects everything to be done her way without even asking. I do not work that way. I told her that I'm here for her, but I'm not going to be at her beck and call. It's going to get worse, so I need to reserve my strength a bit.

I honestly believe my mother is the reason I do not believe in absolute perfection... because I could never please her. Still can't apparently.

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