Empire of Dirt - part 1

title: Empire of Dirt
author: echo
part: 1
rating: 21
words: 9164
summary: A social worker for the dead gets her life uprooted when her surrogate father is murdered.
AN: For NaNo. None of the words in this first part are being counted towards my word count. This particular part was written previously, and the story is being revamped (pardon my pun) for NaNoWriMo. At midnight, I will begin part 2.

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I took a hot bath with bubbles. Supposed to make me feel better, right? Wrong. I'm waiting for midnight. To start writing the next "great" novel. I just got incredibly sad in the bathtub. I kind of realized something. I've been saying it and thinking it for a while now, but it sort of hit me tonight. Well, because of what day it is. Someone I know that moved away is never coming back. So that portion of my life is really over, and I'm pretty sure I feel shitty about it. I know people get busy and stuff, but not too busy to talk to others, I've noticed. Maybe I should try harder. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself... and I really have little reason to. It's not like this big realization was a shock. It's just something really important is on the verge of happening to me and one of the people I thought would always be there... isn't. And it hurts those feelings some people suspect I don't have. I've been trying to hold on for a while, and now I just feel like an idiot for trying to keep up in a life where I think I'm probably not wanted anymore. *sigh*