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spankerellaYou know, I am shocked and disappointed... and more than a little pissed off.
I know that I have a great deal of influence over people in certain parts of the fanfiction community. That said, anyone who knows me, knows that while I have a vicious temper, I would never use any power anyone thinks I wield for evil or meanness. That someone would think I would do so sickens me. I believe in karma, and that's a whole heap of bad karma. I just want to know what part of me this person saw to think that I would do such a thing? I would never. *thinks a whole string of swears*
So because I refuse to believe every word uttered blindly... because I have been played false by certain words before and proceed with skepticism, this person chooses to villify me... to others that I respect. It's a childish and callous thing to do. I thank the goddess the friend this person decided to spew their filth to decided to be skeptical and trust what she knew of me rather than what she was being told.
While I may have overreacted to certain things, while I may have been ready to apologize for my overreactions to a startling set of circumstances and apparent coincidences, I am now resolved that if, big IF -for I am very angry just now, if I do apologize for my conclusion-jumping, there will be NO forgiveness for the transgressions that have occurred in the last few days that have tried to cripple me with guilt and/or blacken my character. I can admit when I am wrong. Sometimes it takes me a day or so, but the speed at which the mudslinging has commenced shows me that my instincts have not been so wrong after all. There ARE certain people I can simply do without.
There are certain people that are re-teaching me the meaning of the word "despise".
I know that I have a great deal of influence over people in certain parts of the fanfiction community. That said, anyone who knows me, knows that while I have a vicious temper, I would never use any power anyone thinks I wield for evil or meanness. That someone would think I would do so sickens me. I believe in karma, and that's a whole heap of bad karma. I just want to know what part of me this person saw to think that I would do such a thing? I would never. *thinks a whole string of swears*
So because I refuse to believe every word uttered blindly... because I have been played false by certain words before and proceed with skepticism, this person chooses to villify me... to others that I respect. It's a childish and callous thing to do. I thank the goddess the friend this person decided to spew their filth to decided to be skeptical and trust what she knew of me rather than what she was being told.
While I may have overreacted to certain things, while I may have been ready to apologize for my overreactions to a startling set of circumstances and apparent coincidences, I am now resolved that if, big IF -for I am very angry just now, if I do apologize for my conclusion-jumping, there will be NO forgiveness for the transgressions that have occurred in the last few days that have tried to cripple me with guilt and/or blacken my character. I can admit when I am wrong. Sometimes it takes me a day or so, but the speed at which the mudslinging has commenced shows me that my instincts have not been so wrong after all. There ARE certain people I can simply do without.
There are certain people that are re-teaching me the meaning of the word "despise".
