the sitch

[spankerella]

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My mother is sick. Well, she's not sick sick, but there's something wrong. I just hope it's 'nothing' like she keeps saying. I don't talk about my mother much. She and I have an... interesting relationship. It's been better lately because of this understanding we have of one another now. But I usually don't talk about my fam here. This thing with my mom has me really worried though. So much so that I'm making myself sick over it. It's making me extra sensitive. I can tell. I can see it in my reactions to things in the last week. She's never really been sick a day in her life... and now all of the sudden she's tired and ill and unhealthy-looking. As hard as we make things for ourselves, she and I, I don't want anything to be wrong with her. There is a decided lack of cummunication that goes on in our family. Nobody can say what they really mean. I've gotten pretty good at code-cracking, but I miss stuff. I missed that she was this sick until I pulled my own head out of my ass and just noticed. I'm so tense about certain members of my family that all I can do is think about controling most of my impulses when I'm around them. It's all about not drawing attention to myself.

In other news, there's going to be less fic. Before anyone starts squealing or crying or anything else... this is why... I have to start rewriting "In Shadowside". That's a priority. The stuff that's getting the publish is ALWAYS gonna be first. It's going to consume me. Whenever I really start writing in the Shadow universe, I lose myself. The rest of the world falls away. And it apparently needs a lot of work. I want to get it done. The sooner I get it done, the sooner it goes to press. So the fight is on. It's me against the words.

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who decided I needed some support after that last post. Thank you. Again... sorry for being such a big baby. I just hope people still recognize the book when I'm through with it. Guess that means those of you who have read it already will just have to buy it anyhow to see how it changed.

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Comments

[devildoll.livejournal.com]

Oh, man.

*sends chocolate and spatulas*

[dream-mancer.livejournal.com]

Hope your mom feels better or gets better or all of the above. I DO know how this feels, especially when I found out my mom had MS. She still has her bad days and her good days. I think today is the 3rd day that we haven't fought and that is a helluva record for us.

You work on your baby all you want. And naturally I'd buy the book, but now I'm even more curious. Hope everything turns out well.

*sends Draco and Blaise with instructions for a foot rub*

[(Anonymous)]

Echo *hugs*

We found out on my mom's last birthday that she has early onset Alzheimer's. She's 50. I can totally relate to seeing your mom different than she "should be". It's hard, it sucks, it's scary, and you're helpless. It's even worse because Mom's supposed to take care of you... cause she's the mom. And then you're faced with the possibility of having to take care of her.

***Mojo that it's something minor like a cold or a bug***

As for writing, you do what you gotta do. The only person you have to answer to about your decisions in that department is the person living in your skin. And since that isn't any of us - well, we can bitch and whine all we please but it's still not up to us.

Don't feel like you *owe* us - and if anyone says you do, send 'em my way. I got a new silicon spatula and it makes a nice splatty sound when it hits exposed skin, especially when the spatula's wet. *grins wickedly*

Gem

[corusca.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, that's horrible. I hope whatever is making your mother tired really is just 'nothing'. *gives chocolate*

And I hope you have fun rewriting 'Shadowside', and take your time 'cause it deserves it. I can hardly wait to put my order in at Amazon.com ;)

[fore-sale.livejournal.com]

I know you don't know me, but I just wanted to say that as much as I enjoy your fic, I like the fact that you're putting your novel before that. I for one can't wait for it to come out on bookshelves, and I'm sure that it'll be great.

[swlangley.livejournal.com]

Sorry things are kind of sucky for you now, hope things get better. Don't worry about the fic, your life is more important than appeasing readers. We'll all still be here when you return. *Gives hugs and chocolate*

[silverflamemuse.livejournal.com]

I know what it's like to know that someone's sick. My grandma, who I had a very close relationship with, was diagnosed with Alzheimer's about two years ago. She barely remembers anyone but my grandpa and her children.

It's hard to think about but hopefully, your mum only has the flu or a passing thing. We're all hoping.

And don't worry about the fic. Shadowverse is your main priority when it comes to writing. Most of your *real* fans will get that.

-Jez

[of-caladan.livejournal.com]

family being sick is hard, its not the same, but i did the same thing with my grandma, the not noticing she was sick, then noticing, then worrying myself into paranoia, but she was ok. it took a little time, but she pulled through like it was nothing. moms are wonderful that way; nothing really gets them down. and i'm sure she doesnt want you making yourself sick with worry, because it will make her worry.
so dont worry; no matter what happens, things work out
as for the story, i say let it consume you...i know madison's fire will burn all the brighter for it (not that it hasnt already consumed the rest of us with anticipation)

[wiseguru.livejournal.com]

Hun, hope your mom's gonna be OK. *hugs*

Take as long as you want with your story, I totally understand.