think pink
Jan. 8th, 2005 03:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spankerellaSo it's not so bad.
Thank you, ever so, to everyone who swarmed in to wish us hugs or support or prayers in the last 24 hours. It means a lot to me. I think my inbox hasn't been this full since the summer. LOL. And people I haven't even "met" before are leaving their good vibes here on LJ for me. For that, again, I thank you.
Yes, my mother still has breast cancer, and that did not change while I slept... much as I wish it had. We have survived the first 24 hours. Those are probably the worst. Now I can talk a bit more. My mother is going to be ok. Mainly because I don't accept otherwise, but also because her doctors say she is. They believe they caught it early enough. Yes, it's gonna be rough, chemo and all, but they say they look for her to make a full recovery. We've had cancer in this family before. We've beaten it back. It has only defeated one of us... and that was in a time when they did not know anything about cancer. If my cousin can have a tumor removed from her brain and still be kickin' it almost ten years later, my mother can beat this. The thing about the women in my family is when we need to be strong, you can not break us. We may get knocked into the dirt, but we rise. I am prepared to do what needs to be done here. Monday morning I go with my mother to the hospital so she can have her mediport put in and a biopsy done. The chemo will begin soon.
A hearty thank you goes out to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
goddessvicky who has made a donation in my name to the Breast Cancer Research Foundation. Words fail me on that one. And thanks goes out to mpants for my pink ribbon icon. If anyone else still feels the need to "do something" or "do more" to help me, I ask that you make a donation to breast cancer research. The first link even takes paypal.
http://www.breastcancer.org/donations_intro_odz.html
http://www.bcrfcure.org/
http://www.komen.org
http://nationalbreastcancer.org/
I know everyone keeps saying there's no hurry, but I am an escapist at heart. Writing will take me away from this drama... even for a little while. So I will get back to the working on the writing in about a week or so. I just need to settle down first.
eta: After reading my email today, I have HAD it. I've had it with fanfiction and archiving my stuff at so many places. Sorry to everyone at FIA and many other archives that I post at, but someone is drudging up all that Cara shite again. I so can not deal with that right now. My fics are coming down. I don't have the energy to deal with this. People who want to read me know where to find me by now. I will now only be posted at my sites, TtH, and Obscurus. If you archive anything of mine, please remove it. Laura, I am so sorry. Will you help me take stuff down?
Also, in light of everything, you know the person who may or may not have copied a bit of "Ab Spiff"? I don't care. I officially DO NOT CARE. I don't have the energy to deal with it, and after everything that's happened in the last 24 hours, I really don't give a shit. And FUCK anyone who thinks I'd send my minions after someone if I wasn't sure. It just doesn't seem that important. Neither does fic anymore. Dammit, I was in a decent mood too (considering) then I had to go start reading my mail. Some people fucking suck, and if you want to think I'm this vindictive witch queen bitch who calls her flying monkeys out at the slightest slight, then do so. I can't stop your thoughts, and yeah, it stings when I see it all typed out, but when it REALLY comes down to it... I don't give a fuck what you think.
I'm getting dressed and going to work. I obviously can't stay here. Also... if anyone else has any "bad" news or severe "putting echo in her place" rants they'd like to give me or even the pointing out of such rants by way of email, can you just hold on to it until after the weekend? I've had about all I can stand already. Definitely reached that quota. Thanks.
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Thank you, ever so, to everyone who swarmed in to wish us hugs or support or prayers in the last 24 hours. It means a lot to me. I think my inbox hasn't been this full since the summer. LOL. And people I haven't even "met" before are leaving their good vibes here on LJ for me. For that, again, I thank you.
Yes, my mother still has breast cancer, and that did not change while I slept... much as I wish it had. We have survived the first 24 hours. Those are probably the worst. Now I can talk a bit more. My mother is going to be ok. Mainly because I don't accept otherwise, but also because her doctors say she is. They believe they caught it early enough. Yes, it's gonna be rough, chemo and all, but they say they look for her to make a full recovery. We've had cancer in this family before. We've beaten it back. It has only defeated one of us... and that was in a time when they did not know anything about cancer. If my cousin can have a tumor removed from her brain and still be kickin' it almost ten years later, my mother can beat this. The thing about the women in my family is when we need to be strong, you can not break us. We may get knocked into the dirt, but we rise. I am prepared to do what needs to be done here. Monday morning I go with my mother to the hospital so she can have her mediport put in and a biopsy done. The chemo will begin soon.
A hearty thank you goes out to
goddessvicky who has made a donation in my name to the Breast Cancer Research Foundation. Words fail me on that one. And thanks goes out to mpants for my pink ribbon icon. If anyone else still feels the need to "do something" or "do more" to help me, I ask that you make a donation to breast cancer research. The first link even takes paypal.http://www.breastcancer.org/donations_intro_odz.html
http://www.bcrfcure.org/
http://www.komen.org
http://nationalbreastcancer.org/
I know everyone keeps saying there's no hurry, but I am an escapist at heart. Writing will take me away from this drama... even for a little while. So I will get back to the working on the writing in about a week or so. I just need to settle down first.
eta: After reading my email today, I have HAD it. I've had it with fanfiction and archiving my stuff at so many places. Sorry to everyone at FIA and many other archives that I post at, but someone is drudging up all that Cara shite again. I so can not deal with that right now. My fics are coming down. I don't have the energy to deal with this. People who want to read me know where to find me by now. I will now only be posted at my sites, TtH, and Obscurus. If you archive anything of mine, please remove it. Laura, I am so sorry. Will you help me take stuff down?
Also, in light of everything, you know the person who may or may not have copied a bit of "Ab Spiff"? I don't care. I officially DO NOT CARE. I don't have the energy to deal with it, and after everything that's happened in the last 24 hours, I really don't give a shit. And FUCK anyone who thinks I'd send my minions after someone if I wasn't sure. It just doesn't seem that important. Neither does fic anymore. Dammit, I was in a decent mood too (considering) then I had to go start reading my mail. Some people fucking suck, and if you want to think I'm this vindictive witch queen bitch who calls her flying monkeys out at the slightest slight, then do so. I can't stop your thoughts, and yeah, it stings when I see it all typed out, but when it REALLY comes down to it... I don't give a fuck what you think.
I'm getting dressed and going to work. I obviously can't stay here. Also... if anyone else has any "bad" news or severe "putting echo in her place" rants they'd like to give me or even the pointing out of such rants by way of email, can you just hold on to it until after the weekend? I've had about all I can stand already. Definitely reached that quota. Thanks.
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