mean girl

[spankerella]

Well, I snapped at my mother today. I don't think she's ever seen me quite like I was. It was on again as soon as I woke up. I was still groggy from the Benedryl. My control was not what it usually is in her presence. The shock was evident. I don't think she knew how well I could string words together. I actually said the sentence... "So I guess the dish fairy washed all those dishes in the sink." *groan* Why can the people in my family not remember what I can be like when I feel like I've been backed into a corner? She promised to try not to be so particular about things.

We'll see.

I think I need a day off from here. I might start talking to the friends and see if I can spend one day a week away. I need to be able to veg out and not worry about someone hollering at me to turn off the lights or take out the trash.

Comments

[madannekidd.livejournal.com]

From what you were saying, it was coming. But... Hey. At least it made her realise how frustrated you've been feeling, right? *hugs* Have patience and good luck, about the vegging out plan, because it sounds like a great one.

[lady-sylver.livejournal.com]

Well, you knew it would happen eventually. Looks like you are still going to have to talk things out, though. And the day off is a good idea. Everyone needs at least one day off a week from their jobs, caregivers even moreso because they have to be there constantly the rest of the time. You definitely should take your "Me time".

And geez, it sounds like your mom treats you like her personal servant! I KNOW she's not feeling up to doing much of anything, but barking orders is NOT going to make her feel any more useful, or any less helpless, it's just going to make YOU miserable. And any idiot shrink would tell you that that's exactly what she's doing. Displacing her own feelings of helplessness on you, by behaving as if you can't keep things in order without her "supervision". Talk to her about it. Sounds like you've made a good start on it already, so don't give up!

[australian-imp.livejournal.com]

*more big hugs*