vacation, all I ever wanted

[spankerella]

I don't feel very good today. I plan on trying to finish my other movie-fic-a-thon fic, but I dunno. It's been a pretty bad day here. Didn't really feel like getting out of bed. Can't seem to stop crying. Won't bore anyone with the details (thanks, Raye). I just feel a little miserable. It happens. Can't be happy all the time, but certain factors in my life are making it worse today. And I really hate when I am so obviously losing it yet none of the people in my day to day seem to notice or care. I am tired of bucking up and just taking it, just maintaing happy so no one else's feathers get ruffled. The sh*t that's going on here is happening to me too. Maybe I don't want to be the damn glue all the time. I need a vacation from my life.

Thank the goddess houses7177 has posted some good fic today. I so needed a good read. Please check out her new fic Yesterday's Sunrise. It looks to be absolutely brilliant. Its BtVS/AB featuring Dawn. I think the basis for the plot is brilliant. It's been done, but not quite like this. She's a very clever writer.

Comments

[houses7177.livejournal.com]

[hugs] Sounds like you need some.

And thanks for the rec! This fic is 95% done, so expect updates every day, or every other day if I get swamped. I'm pleased the premise doesn't suck- I've debated finishing/posting this fic for nearly two years because I wasn't sure it was up to snuff. It means the world that you think it's entertaining.

[gianfared.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Don't know if you noticed or read my lj, but I'm having a sort of funk lately too. You are right that you can't be happy all the time, but it's always nice to know someone's got your back. Sending you a hug, some empathy and tons of compassion. If you need anything... *flutters eyelashes* Oy vey, not that kind of fluttering eyelashes. ;) *HUGS*

[lady-sylver.livejournal.com]

*HUGGLES* Echo, you don't have to be anyone's glue unless you want to. Just be yourself. Everyone who really cares about you will love you anyway. Anyone who says otherwise can take it up with everyone who DOES care about you. Including me, your lowly fiction fan.

I know what it's like to be the foundation of everyone around me's life. I'm taking drastic action. I'm moving home to be with my family in order to escape my so-called friends where I am. I'm not saying yo should do that, just that I can relate, and I'm here for you, to the best of my ability.

Take care of you first, or you're going to drown in taking care of everyone else, and we don't want you to drown in your life. Right, people?

[madannekidd.livejournal.com]

Hey. *hugs* Everyone deserves a vacation sometimes, and no one expects you to be strong all the time, not if they really care about you. Sometimes people just need to cry to heal or to be strong again. Sometimes moments of weaknesses are the biggest shows of strenght of all.

*hugs*