stupid, overemotional echo

Ever have a day where you get that one review that just makes your spirits plummet? Because it hits you where it hurts? Ever want to tell people if that's what they really think then don't bother next time? I hate when I let things like this get to me... because it makes me question if people REALLY like things or if they're just saying 'good work' so I'll keep working. That might not make sense. It's like one review erases all the good things.

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Wow. Thanks for making me feel like total crap about my writing ability. I've only spent the last month writing on that part.

I know I shouldn't let this get to me. My brain is actually saying that, but I just can't help it. I feel like I suck right now. A more rational part of me is saying this is just one person's opinion, but I'm questioning now. Maybe I shouldn't be writing until I'm sure I can again. I have so many ideas, but right now I feel like they aren't good enough.

Gonna go crawl in a hole now.

eta: OK! No hole! I get it. Jesus Christ monkey balls. I'll stop feeling sorry for myself because as far as my writing I have nothing to feel sorry about, but I'm telling you that review HURT MY FEELINGS. Yes, I have feelings. Damn.

eta2: Over it. Pissed off and writing like a demon. The pity party was just busted up by the Cranky Pants police. Feelings = still hurt because I'm offended that someone would even suggest I'd post "partially baked cookies", but the hurt is currently being channeled into some fabulous fic character frustration. No need to comment on the sad state of affairs unless you just want to.

...echo out.

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where is the love?

Normally I don't like bandwagons, but I think this is an excellent one to jump on, so I am passing it along. And also because gdye_trauda is part of the Malfoy drabble community. She's hit some hard times. Without getting too specific, there's a close family member who's ill, and I know all too well what a strain that can be. Show her some love... loveformanda.

eta: Post now unlocked because the surprise has been sprung.

welcome to the jungle

I just watched the Behind the Music for Guns N Roses. So sad. I was *SO* into GNR in middle school. My parents even let me go see them when I was a freshman in high school when they came here with Skid Row. I mentioned I used to be a metalhead, right? Seeing Steven Adler (the original drummer) just made me sad. I had no idea he'd had a cocaine-induced stroke. It just reminds me of things, you know. I had some friends who were out of control like that when we were younger. Had. I know more dead people than I would like to. I mean, look at me. I have issues that are related to how much I used to drink. I know people in jail for various offenses. I know people who have gone through rehab. Some have made it, others have not. I guess I'm just having too many thoughts right now.

By the way, I had to flock that post from earlier about the community, so certain people won't see it before they're supposed to, but if anyone wants it... mail me echo_liz(at)hotmail(dot)com.

eta: Odd side note... Gary Oldman was in a GNR video.

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