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Nov. 10th, 2005 10:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spankerellaI would just like everyone to know that I am pathetic.
I had the worst night at work. I am so sick. I was so cold at work tonight, I thought I was gonna die. I just wanted to lay down and scream that I give up. The prints were late. WAY late. The didn't get there until after 8 PM. I could not leave because there was no on else who could build them. Several things went wrong in the building process. I am weak and achy. I couldn't even lift the film cans myself. Several times tonight I nearly started crying I felt so bad, but I told myself I was not going to cry at work. Also, I had left my wallet at home, so I had no money for dinner. Almost cried. Managed to hold on.
I just cried in the car almost the whole way home.
And not just crying... sobbing like a little bitch because first on the station I was listening to, the played Purple Rain which always makes me think of Nichole. Of course I don't change it. I can't. That's Nic's song. Then they played Journey's "Don't Stop Believing" which always reminds me of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
guyblackcat who doesn't live in Texas anymore, and I miss. A lot. I almost woke my mom up when I got home just to ask her to hug me, but she's been so sick. I don't want to wake her. Plus, I don't want to explain what's wrong with me because she might mock. I seriously couldn't handle that on top of the rest right now.
I know. Pathetic. *insert sarcasm* Poor E. She's got it SOOOO bad.
I had the worst night at work. I am so sick. I was so cold at work tonight, I thought I was gonna die. I just wanted to lay down and scream that I give up. The prints were late. WAY late. The didn't get there until after 8 PM. I could not leave because there was no on else who could build them. Several things went wrong in the building process. I am weak and achy. I couldn't even lift the film cans myself. Several times tonight I nearly started crying I felt so bad, but I told myself I was not going to cry at work. Also, I had left my wallet at home, so I had no money for dinner. Almost cried. Managed to hold on.
I just cried in the car almost the whole way home.
And not just crying... sobbing like a little bitch because first on the station I was listening to, the played Purple Rain which always makes me think of Nichole. Of course I don't change it. I can't. That's Nic's song. Then they played Journey's "Don't Stop Believing" which always reminds me of
guyblackcat who doesn't live in Texas anymore, and I miss. A lot. I almost woke my mom up when I got home just to ask her to hug me, but she's been so sick. I don't want to wake her. Plus, I don't want to explain what's wrong with me because she might mock. I seriously couldn't handle that on top of the rest right now.I know. Pathetic. *insert sarcasm* Poor E. She's got it SOOOO bad.
