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[spankerella]

I would just like everyone to know that I am pathetic.

I had the worst night at work. I am so sick. I was so cold at work tonight, I thought I was gonna die. I just wanted to lay down and scream that I give up. The prints were late. WAY late. The didn't get there until after 8 PM. I could not leave because there was no on else who could build them. Several things went wrong in the building process. I am weak and achy. I couldn't even lift the film cans myself. Several times tonight I nearly started crying I felt so bad, but I told myself I was not going to cry at work. Also, I had left my wallet at home, so I had no money for dinner. Almost cried. Managed to hold on.

I just cried in the car almost the whole way home.

And not just crying... sobbing like a little bitch because first on the station I was listening to, the played Purple Rain which always makes me think of Nichole. Of course I don't change it. I can't. That's Nic's song. Then they played Journey's "Don't Stop Believing" which always reminds me of guyblackcat who doesn't live in Texas anymore, and I miss. A lot. I almost woke my mom up when I got home just to ask her to hug me, but she's been so sick. I don't want to wake her. Plus, I don't want to explain what's wrong with me because she might mock. I seriously couldn't handle that on top of the rest right now.

I know. Pathetic. *insert sarcasm* Poor E. She's got it SOOOO bad.

Comments

Not pathetic... ill... and suffering

[dropversedevo-t.livejournal.com]

Lady E,

Dont u think u are pathetic.. dont u think u are weak.. You are ill.. and i hope andpray that you feel better right away. Please if u can see a doc if there is anything they can do for you.

Know that you have people wishing you well.. and i am sure that there are Echo friends and fans who are closer physically than i am that will offer to help in whatever way they can.

Please, please see a medical professional.. and i damn well hope that that stinking cinema pulls their collective heads out of their asses...

Thinking of you,, praying for you.

Your fan, and i hope your friend
Ray (DD)

[emeraldswan.livejournal.com]

Hold on tight, girl. It's not always like this, and today's going to go away eventually. It won't be taking you with it though, and you'll see the sun rise tomorrow. You know, if you're up that early.

{{hugs you}}

[slythhearted.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

I don't think you are pathetic at all. When you're sick your body devotes all of its energy to getting better, that doesn't leave a lot (if any) left over to keep you emotionally strong. Crying is a necessary emotional release and I don't think you should ever feel ashamed of reaching that point.

*second hug for good measure*

[jo_anne_storm]

Sometimes you just have to cry. And being sick is no fun. You had an awful night and needed the emotional and physical release of crying. It happens. I'm rather impressed that you held it in until you were in private. That's not pathetic.

According to her LJ, jinni has been sick all day, too. I bet you two have the same thing.

[booster17.livejournal.com]

*drive-by huggle attack*

Sometimes, when you're sick, it seems like the whole world is out to get you. And sometimes it is.

Get well soon.

[kiramarie.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You are not pathetic. You are sick and being sick sucks, and can be traumatic when you know that you feel like crap but you have to get things done, especially when it's your job or when people are relying on you. So gets some rest and feel better soon.

*hugs*

[fatewalker.livejournal.com]

It's not pathetic. About 2 years ago, I moved 500 miles away from my mom. Now, whenever I have really bad day or get sick, which is a lot cuz I teach high school...all I want is her and some love.

[tsorriana.livejournal.com]

You are SO NOT pathectic. So it was a bad day. We know you are the best. If it gets to bad call moms and know that We may show up. If nothng else, It would give you a giggle. Moms is nuts. Love you Auntie. Get better

Nate

[tthjinni.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Right there with you on the being sick thing. I couldn't get warm last night no matter what I did. My toes feel like little icicles today.

and another *hugs* I wish I could make your friend come back here for you =(

[houses7177.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Sounds like you need a good deep soak in a tub. And chocolate.

[dream-mancer.livejournal.com]

You're not pathetic. You're human. I'm right there with you on the job front. The job I'm working is kicking my butt and the past two nights, the scanner we clock in to hasn't been working, so we're having to re-word those hours.

I was staying here at JBU this weekend, but I'm going home now. To my mom. I've already cried to her this morning over the phone and now I'm going home to cry to her in person.

Anything I can do for a cheer-up? Need me to pull out the monkey suit? Sing the faggot song (check the LJ)?

[brendanm720.livejournal.com]

[sits down]

[offers shoulder]

I'm sorry that your miserable. I've Done the work-when-I'm-sicker-than-a-dog thing, and it's not fun. Not fun at all. I prescribe a pot of chicken noodle soup (made with an actual chicken) and maybe some Ginger-Ale Jello for the sick part.

(in case you're wondering, this is my stock prescription for everyone who is sick).

It does suck that nobody else at the theater knows how to build prints. You need a backup.

Could you maybe go and see your grandma? She wouldn't mock you, right?

[ancient-immie.livejournal.com]

Not pathetic E, just need some rest and time.

*big hugs*

Here for ya

[orion777.livejournal.com]

Hey girl,

You know we all love you and you mean the world to us. Just think, it's a new day - and the weekend. It will get better. I am sorry you feel so crappy. If you need anything, you know I am only a phone call away. Friends are supposed to be there for both the good and the bad - right? So don't hesitate to call if you need to.

I hope you get to feeling better soon. Vitamin C baby and lots of it.

Just think HP is only 6 days away, that will put a smile on your face! :)

Call me if you need me

-B

[dadaginny.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon! (((((hugs))))) and passes over the chicken noodle soup). Hope you get well soon so you won't have as much stress.

[empressvesica.livejournal.com]

Oh hon....everyone feels that way sometimes. It doesn't make you weak or anything. If anything, crying makes you stronger, saner. There are plenty of people whose first instinct when things become overwhelming are to strike out at something or someone. Cry, hon. There's no shame in sitting down in the middle of your life path, having a marvelous kicking and screaming tantrum to get it all out, and then continuing on. I do it all the time.