stress insomnia
Sep. 27th, 2006 01:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spankerellaSorta can't sleep really. Am. Slowly. Breaking. Down. Haboring A LOT of resentment against extended family. Grandmother seems determined that I no longer have any sort of life outside of work and taking care of sick mother, and even the work part seems iffy lately. Unacceptable. Woman is determined, it seems, to ruin my birthday. Feel hopeless and trapped. Worst birthday build-up ever. May go back to lying about when it is. This is worse than when I turned 30 and got all stressed about it and became overly needy towards people who couldn't have given a shit about my problems then.
*sigh*
Must go try to go to bed now as I have to be up by 8 to administer medication through mother's mediport... even though I am the one who is squeamish about needles and IVs and stuff. Feel pathetic. Can't even be bothered to write real sentences. Feel wretched and small and not worth a damn. Feel like a loser for whining about it.
/pity party
*sigh*
Must go try to go to bed now as I have to be up by 8 to administer medication through mother's mediport... even though I am the one who is squeamish about needles and IVs and stuff. Feel pathetic. Can't even be bothered to write real sentences. Feel wretched and small and not worth a damn. Feel like a loser for whining about it.
/pity party
