I'm cold as cold as cold can be... be
Oct. 18th, 2006 09:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spankerellaI'm tired in my soul tonight.
Rough as hell day, and tomorrow looks no better for me. The first leg of the nervous breakdown has occured tonight. Two Tylenol PM washed down with some rum and I feel a bit more calm though. Yes, I know. Bad idea. Don't care though. I felt like a little reckless self medicating tonight. At least I stamped down the momentary urge to self medicate with some of Mom's pain medicine. That was an interesting two seconds before I checked myself.
Tomorrow I plan on running with scissors. I'm trapped in a hell not of my making. I have to make my own fun. Oh, just ignore me. Just felt like venting and being overly dramatic. I'm pissed off at the world today. I've been blindsided so many times in the last two months that it's damn good I'm so subborn. Some people would have given up ages ago. You know though, if my life ever starts going smoothly, I'll pee myself in shock.
*sigh*
Rough as hell day, and tomorrow looks no better for me. The first leg of the nervous breakdown has occured tonight. Two Tylenol PM washed down with some rum and I feel a bit more calm though. Yes, I know. Bad idea. Don't care though. I felt like a little reckless self medicating tonight. At least I stamped down the momentary urge to self medicate with some of Mom's pain medicine. That was an interesting two seconds before I checked myself.
Tomorrow I plan on running with scissors. I'm trapped in a hell not of my making. I have to make my own fun. Oh, just ignore me. Just felt like venting and being overly dramatic. I'm pissed off at the world today. I've been blindsided so many times in the last two months that it's damn good I'm so subborn. Some people would have given up ages ago. You know though, if my life ever starts going smoothly, I'll pee myself in shock.
*sigh*
