stupid, overemotional echo

[spankerella]

Ever have a day where you get that one review that just makes your spirits plummet? Because it hits you where it hurts? Ever want to tell people if that's what they really think then don't bother next time? I hate when I let things like this get to me... because it makes me question if people REALLY like things or if they're just saying 'good work' so I'll keep working. That might not make sense. It's like one review erases all the good things.

Echo, you know I adore your work, and tell you so every time I leave a review, but when I read this chapter, I just didn't see the emotion and interaction I normally have seen with your chapters. The scenario is flawless, but I just didn't feel this chapter as I felt the others. It felt like you were putting up this chapter just to make your fans happy... Sorry if any of this sound rude. Keep your head up and your eyes shining..

Much love,
*name removed*

Wow. Thanks for making me feel like total crap about my writing ability. I've only spent the last month writing on that part.

I know I shouldn't let this get to me. My brain is actually saying that, but I just can't help it. I feel like I suck right now. A more rational part of me is saying this is just one person's opinion, but I'm questioning now. Maybe I shouldn't be writing until I'm sure I can again. I have so many ideas, but right now I feel like they aren't good enough.

Gonna go crawl in a hole now.

eta: OK! No hole! I get it. Jesus Christ monkey balls. I'll stop feeling sorry for myself because as far as my writing I have nothing to feel sorry about, but I'm telling you that review HURT MY FEELINGS. Yes, I have feelings. Damn.

eta2: Over it. Pissed off and writing like a demon. The pity party was just busted up by the Cranky Pants police. Feelings = still hurt because I'm offended that someone would even suggest I'd post "partially baked cookies", but the hurt is currently being channeled into some fabulous fic character frustration. No need to comment on the sad state of affairs unless you just want to.

...echo out.

*

Comments

[spankerella.livejournal.com]

Just needed to work through it emmotionally. Over it now. Sufficiently irritated enough to write soemthing else now.

[brendanm720.livejournal.com]

That's the Echo we all know and love!

[spankerella.livejournal.com]

Well, I can't be fabulously snarky 24/7.

[brendanm720.livejournal.com]

Okay, I'll give you the snarkage thing. I'm sure that you're fabulous all the time, though.

I can't believe that I just used the word 'fabulous' in a sentance without referring to British Television