Tear my heart open...

[spankerella]

... I sew myself shut.

My mother doesn't just have breast cancer. She has lung cancer and bone cancer in her left leg. The (yeah right) upside... it's isolated, so it's treatable. I can't wrap my mind around any of this just now. If you have mailed me in the last few days, I am not being bitchy and ignore-y. I've just been dealing with a little more than I can handle. You know that feeling where you really just want to have a good old freak-out cry fest and break down? Yeah. I am just about there.

Thank you to those of you on my yahoo group who've been fielding questions. I really appreciate that.

Comments

[howitzer.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I just wish I was there to do it in person right now.

I know it doesn't sound like much but isolated is good. That they are going to treat it is good. Please don't lose hope.

*hugs again*

[sevenfourteen.livejournal.com]

ohh man, echo, i'm sorry i haven't responded sooner

i'm so sorry about your mom, sweetheart...hopefully, it should be ok.

*major hugs*

[kadollan.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. **hugs**

You and your family are in my thoughts.

[jacyevans.livejournal.com]

awe echo *hugs* i'm sorry dear. you and your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers

[archerstar.livejournal.com]

Oh my. I am so sorry. This would be too much for anyone to handle. I wish I could be there to help you through this but I guess all I can give is my best wishes that everything works out. I truly do hope that both she and you will be okay.

[lizey.livejournal.com]

What she said, ahoy, except in addition to the 'too much for anyone to handle' - too much than anyone should ever have to handle, but you and your mother are strong, you can fight this, and all such things. Lots of love.

[mtlwritermom.livejournal.com]

SUPER BIG HUG from Montreal

[rosefyre.livejournal.com]

*hugs* If you need any help with ANYTHING, don't hesitate to ask me. Really. Don't.

oh dear.

[bana05.livejournal.com]

Just . . . *hugs* . . . and a prayer for you. That's all I know how to give.

bana

[stir-of-echoes.livejournal.com]

Hang in there kiddo, and just do what you have to do!

*hugs you extra hard*

[empressvesica.livejournal.com]

Not news you were hoping or prepared for. Yuck. At least the doctors know and can start doing everything they can now, rather than later down the road.

Do what you need to for you...and I hope, whether here or with RL friends, that you are able to have some "you" time and just let out whatever you feel - no censors. Much love to you and your mum...

[australian-imp.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

Thinking of you and your mother.

[devildoll.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry.

[wiseguru.livejournal.com]

Again nothing I can say. Just know you and your mother are in my toughts and prayers.

[corusca.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry Echo. I'm really hope she'll be alright.

Big Hug

[(Anonymous)]

I am sorry to hear about your mom. I am glad to hear that you caught it in time. Go on ahead and have a freak-out cry-fest. I promise it'll make you feel a little better.

-Brendan

[norwegianne.livejournal.com]

So so sorry. Uh, don't know quite what else to say... except, I'm on the other end of the internet for you...

[(Anonymous)]

Breakdown cry fests would help relieve some of the emotional stress. Trust me. *hugs*

Isolated is good and at least they have caught this all together. I wish the same could be said for my grandfather. They only diagnosed him with lung cancer, then realized until it was too late that he had pancreatic cancer.

My only other world of encouragement can be 'Remember Lance Armstrong', who was also diagnosed with severel cancers at once. He's still going and I have no doubts in my mind your mother will as well.

Take care

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Echo, you don't know me, but I'm a huge fan of your fics and I just found your LJ recently.

I'm really sorry about your mom. *hugs* My best friend was diagnosed with this really agressive form of Lukemia, so I think have some idea as to what you're going through right now. Hang in there, you obviously have some really good friends (and then some) who'll support you all the way. :)And if ever you need some random stranger's shoulder to cry on, I'm offering mine. If it counts for anything, you and your mom are in my prayers.

-christina

[(Anonymous)]

Echo *big hugs* - there's just not much else to say.

Well.. they do say God/dess never gives us more than we can handle. Boy, She must have some big faith in you!

Luckily, so do we. Do what you need to do - cry, get angry, whatever. Once you get past your emotion, you can get down to the business of helping your mom fight this.

On one of the websites that you posted about cancer, they likened it to having a whale in the room with you, squeezing everything else out. With some positive imagery, maybe we can work on changing that whale into an itty bitty guppy.... or a krill... or even a plankton!

Gem

[trekkiesara.livejournal.com]

We just had some cancer issues in our family (including intestinal and brain cancer, although luckily not in the same person) and we have been beating it back due to the miracles of modern medicne. I will be praying for your family and hoping that it turns out as well for yours as it did for ours.

Hugs and hope

[jojo-sweetie.livejournal.com]

*hugs* that sucks I have no other word for it. Threw how much does one person need to go?

But you say it’s isolated, that’s good, if it was any different it would be a lot worse. She has a pretty good chance of making a full recovery still.
Since I’m going to the church with my grandma tomorrow, I’ll pray for your mother and you.

And you should take sometime off for yourself, have a good cry maybe of few good cries and take some time to put things in a row.

Lots of love,
-xxx-
Jojo

[dream-mancer.livejournal.com]

They just don't stop, do they?

Know I'm thinking of you, and remember: whatever, and I really do mean WHATever, I can do...I'm just a hop, skip, and click away.

I heard this today and hopefully it'll help, even if just a teeny tiny bit.

"Love isn't a decision. You can't decide to just "love" someone. Love is an emotion...a characteristic...a passion. That's love. Passion."

You, m'dear, have passion. Whatever happens, good or bad, we're all right there along with you.

[houses7177.livejournal.com]

Sometimes giving in and having a good cry is the best thing you can do.

My heart and prayers are with your mother and family.

[angel-allegra.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so very sorry.
isolated is good - at least they can treat it.
go ahead and have a breakdown cry fest - it'll relieve some of the emotional stress - it helps.
i really hope she'll be alright.

[vanyel-f.livejournal.com]

Damn that's bad. I hope it will get better with the treatment.